i need more.

....i feel like i am pulling all the weight.
this has been going on for three months now; to be honest i'm over it.
i fully support all that you have going on; one hundred percent.
i am behind you; i will always be.
i know that you have a lot on your plate; as do i.
you want this right; show me that.
i need more effort------

----::hold me::------

...another sunday has some and gone...
& all i can do is pray;
pray for an answer to what this is-----
i want to learn the lesson in this.

and i still long for you to hold me;
& tell me that we will be alright.

i really do miss you.
i miss us.
the three of us-----

He's working in me-----

....waiting for sunday----
i need church.

i'm past the wanting to make this work.
i want God to work in you; i can only pray.
the hurt is so painful, but i don't deserve this.

i would never hurt you, on purpose.

i want sunday to be here.
my heart needs work, and only God can heal this.

::i will wait::

i will be here...

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear,
I will be here.

If in the dark we lose sight of love,
Hold my hand and have no fear,
‘Cause I will be here.

CHORUS
I will be here when you feel like being quiet;
When you need to speak your mind, I will listen.
And I will be here when the laughter turns to crying;
Through the winning, losing, and trying, we’ll be together,
‘Cause I will be here.

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear,
I will be here.

As sure as seasons are made for change,
Our lifetimes are made for years,
So I will be here.

CHORUS
I will be here, so you can cry on my shoulder;
When the mirror tells us we’re older, I will hold you.
And I will be here to watch you grow in beauty,
And tell you all the things you are to me;
I will be here.

I will be true to the promise I have made,
To you and to the One who gave you to me.

As sure as seasons are made for change,
Our lifetimes are made for years,
So I, I will be here.
We'll be together and i will be here.


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On our day we danced to this song, and i sung it in your ear.
i made a vow to you.
i held you so tight.

and i still do; i want you to hold me.
i want to hold you in my arms and tell you that this is a rough time.
and i will always be here...

i am praying for you; for us; three.

what is this...

.....i am not even sure where to start.
i am no where near perfection, never claimed to be. i have faults & i admit to them without thinking about them twice. i make mistakes and always own up to them. i want to improve my short cummings; but never did i claim p-e-r-f-e-c-t-i-o-n.

i want my life back, the one that you promised me. i want you to communicate with me, the things that are wrong, approach me face to face.
we have a life together, a son together. we all fall out of love, we're not perfect. you are my very best friend, and i enjoy what we have together.

i am hurting and i'm not sure that you even see...