My prayers are with them.

...I can hope and pray that more rain will come. I've been thinking a lot about the fires going on right now, I haven't had a chance to watch the news lately. My heart goes out to all those families who have lost, homes and loved ones. I pray for all the firefighters and there safety. I remember when Jordan was at Katrina all I could do was worry. There is nothing like that feeling of not knowing what is going on. I didn't hear from him for days and all you can do is wait...

My prayers are with all those people.

just for me.

...I am so ready for my body to go back to it's original form. I guess that's not gonna happen on it's own. Don't get me wrong, I love being preg-o, but that is already sixteen months behind me.
I am going on a diet, for no one else but me. I've been letting it go for far to long. I know that this is gonna be hard because the holidays are just around the corner, but I am motivated so here I go.

I cannot wait to wear what I wanna wear.....
and have no worries...

My bestie.

....She is a great sister, wonderful mother & I'm sure she'll be an awesome wife. I love this lady like you don't even know. We weren't always this close, one day in HS something just clicked. I could live next door to her for the rest of my life and that would be fine with me. She's kinda far away and I miss her. We talk on the phone and try to see eachother at least once a month. She's my bestie. Not to mention how much my husband loves my sister, he gets upset if he's not referred to as her brother.(the in law part is not allowed.) And Jaydon, you can see Nena walked in the room without even seeing Nena. He runs to her. She is his second mother. No one knows me like her.*(only jordy.) I could call her wherever I am and she'll be there. I love my sister and I am so grateful for her.

I know you wanted to know.

1. Who is your man?
Jordan, he is my husband, father to my bubba boo and our hero. he is such a hard worker and loves what he does. he is amazing, and like tina---i could go on and on.
2. How long have you been together?
8 years in june, just barley started high school.
3. How long did you date?
six years before we were married.
4. How old is your man?
23
5. Who eats more?
he does.
6. Who said "I love you" first?
i think i did.
7. Who is taller?
we're about the same, he may be a little.
8. Who sings better?
neither of us, but we try. jaydon loves when we sing to him. (jaydon mateo in the deep blue sea.)
9. Who is smarter?
hmmm, were both smart; in different subjects.
10. Whose temper is worse?
His...mines pretty yucky too though. we haven't seen that in while though ;)
11. Who does the laundry?
me.
12. Who takes out the garbage?
me.
13. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed?
my man.
14. Who pays the bills?
i do.
15. Who is better with the computer?
depends on the day.
16. Who mows the lawn?
our handy dandy landlord.
17. Who cooks dinner?
we share the duty when he is home.
18. Who drives when you are together?
muah, i don't mind though. he drives all the time at work.
19. Who pays when you go out?
either, it all comes from the place.
20. Who is most stubborn?
that would be a tie. I give in more not because I'm not stubborn but because I am less of a fan of conflict.(i'm with you on this one tina ;)
21. Who is the first to admit when they are wrong?
he is.
22. Whose parents do you see the most?
that's a tie, we try to go home once a month, and if not they come and visit us.
it's been nice.
23. Who kissed who first?
i kissed him, we were in a movie and he would not shut up ;)
24. Who asked who out?
He asked me out, FINALLY! after i called him a few times.
25. Who proposed?
He did.
26. Who is more sensitive?
I am- always have been always will.
27. Who has more friends?
we both have the same friends. we share.
28. Who has more siblings?
i do. three brothers and 1 sister. 1 brother in law, & 2 sister in laws, which i consider my own.
& 1 sista! love you kristin!
29. Who wears the pants in the family?
He thinks he does, and some times I let him. ----i agree ;)

I will always be here.

I love you & I always will.
I think that's what makes it hurt so much.
I think I just I end up caring about friends too much. You are so much more than a friend to me though. Your my family, you were there when they were not. You held and consoled me. When I was hurting and talking non-stop you listened. Lately, I've been calling and I'm guessing that your busy. I just thought that you would always be there. I know that we have different views on some stuff that has been going on in your life...I never thought that I'd be put to the side, because we think differently about something. I care about you, and worry. I know that it's not my bussiness. I love you, that's what I know. I know that I have a little man that you've missed out on. He's growing and getting b-i-g. You have a little someone too. I've missed out on a lot of the things going on in her life, that bothers me. You asked me to be there for her. I want too.... You need to let me know. I know that we both have lives, and families. I could go on and on.
I do know that I love you & always will.

ready for the weekend.

Jordan gets a three day. Yay! That hasn't happen in a while. His momma is coming into town, which I know that he is totally excited about. She's such a great lady. She adores, Jaydon. She calls him Mateo which is his middle name. He doesn't come to that name but, that's what she calls him. Jordan's grandma is coming too. Which is so great, because she's hardly got to spend anytime with Jaydon since he was born.
A year ago this month, Jordan's grandpa passed away(her husband.) It's been a crazy year. I am so thankful that grandpa was able to see Jaydon. He was so proud to meet his great grandson. I remember his last days in the hospital; he wanted so badly to make plans to be with Jaydon. I am so grateful, that we were able to be there with him.
Jordan's grandma is so strong. She totally takes care of herself and is so sharp. I'm excited to spend some time with her. She's cooking for us, which is a total treat. I love that when Jordan's mom comes to visit they don't show up at the house super early. Jordan, Jaydon and I will have time to just hang. I cannot wait for what this weekend holds.

our lazy days.

I'm craving a lazy day. A day with my boys. It consists of going no where. We rent movies and make a b-i-g bed on the floor in the living room. And our favorite foods. Hopefully, chicken wings; cause that's or favorite. We lie in one anothers arms all day. In our pjs of coarse. Jaydon bounces around a lot and we love it. Then he goes down for a nap and I am left in the arms of my man. Right where I belong.
I love these days::

oh, my memories.

Tonight, Jaydon & I got to visit with family that we have not seen in a while. Jordan's grandma, Aunt Elsa and Uncle Aaron. They came over and I cooked dinner which I love. I love having family and friends in my home. Jaydon helped me entertain. I always cook with music. Jaydon loves to dance, with or without music he's got rythme. So, I cooked and Jaydon danced around the living room for our family. I almost died, he was not the least bit shy, all eyes on him & he loved it. He fed off the clapping & laughing. Grandma is losing her memory, and all weekend it has been killing me. Getting old is so hard---we are not in hollister to see her often. Which makes me sad. I know that Jordan & I both wish that we could be with her more. She is the sweetest lady that you will ever meet. She's made of sugar, for sure. She ::loves:: Jaydon, her eye is always on him. Her goal is always to keep him laughing. So her short memory has been eatting away at me. She was always so on top of things. She always has the best advise. Tonight, before she left she looked into my soul and said take care of these boys! My reply was short. I will, grandma.

::I love you, grandma::