i need more.

....i feel like i am pulling all the weight.
this has been going on for three months now; to be honest i'm over it.
i fully support all that you have going on; one hundred percent.
i am behind you; i will always be.
i know that you have a lot on your plate; as do i.
you want this right; show me that.
i need more effort------

----::hold me::------

...another sunday has some and gone...
& all i can do is pray;
pray for an answer to what this is-----
i want to learn the lesson in this.

and i still long for you to hold me;
& tell me that we will be alright.

i really do miss you.
i miss us.
the three of us-----

He's working in me-----

....waiting for sunday----
i need church.

i'm past the wanting to make this work.
i want God to work in you; i can only pray.
the hurt is so painful, but i don't deserve this.

i would never hurt you, on purpose.

i want sunday to be here.
my heart needs work, and only God can heal this.

::i will wait::

i will be here...

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear,
I will be here.

If in the dark we lose sight of love,
Hold my hand and have no fear,
‘Cause I will be here.

CHORUS
I will be here when you feel like being quiet;
When you need to speak your mind, I will listen.
And I will be here when the laughter turns to crying;
Through the winning, losing, and trying, we’ll be together,
‘Cause I will be here.

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear,
I will be here.

As sure as seasons are made for change,
Our lifetimes are made for years,
So I will be here.

CHORUS
I will be here, so you can cry on my shoulder;
When the mirror tells us we’re older, I will hold you.
And I will be here to watch you grow in beauty,
And tell you all the things you are to me;
I will be here.

I will be true to the promise I have made,
To you and to the One who gave you to me.

As sure as seasons are made for change,
Our lifetimes are made for years,
So I, I will be here.
We'll be together and i will be here.


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On our day we danced to this song, and i sung it in your ear.
i made a vow to you.
i held you so tight.

and i still do; i want you to hold me.
i want to hold you in my arms and tell you that this is a rough time.
and i will always be here...

i am praying for you; for us; three.

what is this...

.....i am not even sure where to start.
i am no where near perfection, never claimed to be. i have faults & i admit to them without thinking about them twice. i make mistakes and always own up to them. i want to improve my short cummings; but never did i claim p-e-r-f-e-c-t-i-o-n.

i want my life back, the one that you promised me. i want you to communicate with me, the things that are wrong, approach me face to face.
we have a life together, a son together. we all fall out of love, we're not perfect. you are my very best friend, and i enjoy what we have together.

i am hurting and i'm not sure that you even see...

My prayers are with them.

...I can hope and pray that more rain will come. I've been thinking a lot about the fires going on right now, I haven't had a chance to watch the news lately. My heart goes out to all those families who have lost, homes and loved ones. I pray for all the firefighters and there safety. I remember when Jordan was at Katrina all I could do was worry. There is nothing like that feeling of not knowing what is going on. I didn't hear from him for days and all you can do is wait...

My prayers are with all those people.

just for me.

...I am so ready for my body to go back to it's original form. I guess that's not gonna happen on it's own. Don't get me wrong, I love being preg-o, but that is already sixteen months behind me.
I am going on a diet, for no one else but me. I've been letting it go for far to long. I know that this is gonna be hard because the holidays are just around the corner, but I am motivated so here I go.

I cannot wait to wear what I wanna wear.....
and have no worries...